New Beginnings.

Okay serious journal entry time:

Yes. They are everywhere.

I just got hired at another tea shop, which should be interesting. For a while there I was sure they'd passed me by in the merciless world of hiring new employees, but alas. I was mistaken. Perhaps next time I shouldn't jump to such hasty conclusions, but at the same time I learned a very important and valuable lesson for life:

Always hope, but never expect.

I feel as though I'll be able to apply this rule to my life in the future and perhaps save myself a lot of grief down the road. Here's hoping, anyway.

I also got off the medication I was on. Finally. For good. I was on an obscenely high dosage of Sertraline hydrochloride (otherwise known as Zoloft) for a good six or seven years of my life, and I've finally reached a point where I can truly live again without its aid. This is an accomplishment. A huge one. I'm still digesting it, actually.

Another new beginning is Vincent.

Oh, Vincent.

It's weird how when I talk about Vincent Valentine now I'm usually talking about a real person.

Senn555, this is your fault. But I forgive you. Such a strange, random encounter with someone that somehow - by some odd twist of the fates - led to something incredible and completely unforeseen out of the blue. I've never connected with someone the way I connect with Vincent, which is interesting... because I've connected with people before. Deeply connected. But even in the beginning stages, not like this. Never like this.

The bottom line?

All these new beginnings really freak me out, to be honest. I'm terrified. I'm almost waiting on something to go horribly wrong. The past dealings with similar situations in all respects that have gone bad still haunt me now, but I'm trying my best not to let my past choke out my future. Strange how every one of these situations has a parallel from some other time. Second chances, perhaps? I guess we'll see.

And it all comes back to this:
Always hope, but never expect.

-cVII